Did I make you feel.. something?

 

It takes time for me to get back on writing something here. Lost the loads of ideas to express since a lot of hard things going on in real life. But no matter how big it was, I'm still keeping it all in and try not to be over dramatic. And hey, still got the chance to drop by here aight? You know me :)

How's life, people? Don't ask me why I'm asking y'guys. Mine... ups and downs, as usual. But the down moments were little bit harder than I thought but yeah, trying to be cool but unfortunately, end up crying alone in a dark room. My parents, friends are the peoples who push me up harder than before, but I'm expecting the another one person who help them bringing me back. Someone who used to be supportive, someone who used to be understandable. I could not thinking what have happened to him right now that made him changed. I know he is now one of the people who's free from school, and soon to be legal to do such things as driving and living in college while I'm here, stuck in myself. I'm used to be emotional, like now, but I won't asking for more than love, from him after this. Expecting and asking for more is too desperate and heartbreaking.

Other than that, I'm kind of disappointed with him and it's hard to say this since I'm having my ego taking over my mind but I'm disappointed with myself, too. I don't know what to say since I'm too egoistic and mad to tell him by myself for some reasons. I don't want to talk bad stuffs about my own boy but I am too fucking mad about this until I can cry in front of this bloody monitor while typing with this damn keyboard. To avoid controversial things going on, I'll cover it by telling some tips about, yeah you should read. Especially for those who's in a long-distance relationship.

#1 If you're in a serious, long-distance relationship and haven't met for a couple of months, you should be considerate about your girl's/boy's feelings (most of the emotional parts is from the girls. Don't believe me? Check your girl's Twitter/Facebook/Tumblr.). Don't be TOO friendly to people. Nak kawan, okay je. Senang cerita, kalau kau lelaki, jangan add perempuaaan je dekat Facebook (especially kalau add semua perempuan cantik je. Pergh.). Kalau kau perempuan, Jangan nak IM je dengan lelaki.

#2 Send them a very good morning/good night text. If you're working and arrived home at 11 or something liddat, you should text them "Are you still awake?" (text laa sweet sweet, aiyoo). If they reply, don't be like "Ohh gtg, sleepy. Text me goodnight text. Bye." or didn't text at all because you're too fucking sleepy while she's/he's already waiting for you to get home. Lagi kesian if they are sleepy but you're acting like a sdfghjds jerk. Kalau dia macam sabar gila nak mati, please give them kudos. If you're too sleepy, just say that you're too tired and need to sleep or give them night phonecalls ke, chicks digs guys who have sleepy voice. Jangan selalu pulak cakap mengantuk mengantuk, kesian dia.

If they didn't reply, just give them a very sweet goodnight text. Tell them that you missed him/her, and express your feelings laah. Let them know you're there for them. You don't know what have they been through on that day. I repeat, don't be such a jerk.

#3 Don't hide anything. Don't fucking hide anything. Just tell them where you are now, who are you with, or whatever. Maybe for you, it's kind of weird to do such thing. Don't hide anything in Facebook, in Twitter. They'll be a mad stalker when they're missing you so badly. Okay here's a funny story of mine. I knew his Facebook password and I can open it whenever I feel so lonely and suspicious about something. C'mon, if you're a protective girlfriend, you'll know my feelings when you have a boyfriend yang macam open-minded or gatal ke whatever lah. So, for girls yang rajin sangat IM my boyfriend benda benda yang boleh buat I jealous, better watch out. Maybe some of them dah kenal but yeah, just watch out. Tapi kalau sedara ke family, tak kisah haha peace ^^v don't be scared, I won't kill you or something. Just being protective since he didn't pay attention to me right now and luahkan dekat other girls. I am sad. Faham tak?

#4 Make them feel more important and special than your ex. Okay, this one ah.. that's why I've highlighted it with other colour. I'll make this short and simple (which is clearly not short and simple). Don't talk to your ex more than your partner. For example; you replied your partner's texts in a very short message while you're chatting with your ex about everything. Your partner will be so fucking sad and offended because they've waited for you, they also wanted to know about you since they're 'your everything'. If your ex is your bestfriend........ I can't say no more but please, control it. If your partner already know you before your ex (that means y'guys have been friends before going into the next level), think about their feelings. I don't really care if you stick with the 'still friends with ex' statement and you still can be friends like your ex but most of the people say it's not good contacting your ex back because they're your mistakes, they're your past. You know what I mean, right? Yeah, I do contact my ex but I'm still regret about having him as my boyfriend back then. And if I can do such things, I want him to extinct because I want to concentrate with my current relationship but obviously from my own post, my boyfriend isn't concentrate with his current relationship. With me. No hate.

Wow, what a long post. Sighs, I'm expressing this because I don't want people to be sad like me because of this kind of situation. I don't want people to be more sadder than I am. From the girls/boys who got the same situation like I am, please be patient. I know you're disappointed but I know it'll lead to a better place, better situations. Be positive. I have a lot things in mind to say about this but I can't describe it to my fingers. Oh to some people, don't be offended to my post. I was just expressing like all people do.

Till the next post, then! I don't know when's the free time to blog. And I don't have any idea what to type. Hahaha ok ciao.

Already gone.

Stuck with a lot of activities, I'm depressed by myself. Rolling on the floor of procrastination and killed myself with tension. Emotionally dead. Naaah, you're probably not understand what I'm trying to say so let's begin with something.. I am dead meat. With high hopes that something bad will NOT happen but yeah, life's too unpredictable. Only Allah knows what's my next plan, what'll happen next and so on. Maybe I'll be dead, like really dead, tomorrow. Who knows? 

Whaaaat don't make the 'Omg did she just mention about death?' face please, my dearies. Pfftshhsh yeaah, like people care when's my funeral kaan? Ye, aku memang tengah emo gila. All I do now is trying to study with hoping that I can catch-up everything for PMR, tuition 3 times a week, cheerleading, piano lessons, and I have a problem with my timetable. I don't have enough sleep, I'm hurting myself, I didn't eat a lot these days. I don't why but I've lost my big appetite.

Oh the good news is, I'm in top 30 for Larian 7's! Tapi malangnya..... cikgu kira sampai 25 je. Boohoo, I am disappointed. But I gave a point to my Rumah Sukan and I am so proud of myself. I feel like, having an improvement on something is gooood. Last year I didn't join the run but I've joined it last two years and it's horrible. Better skip the story. Maybe I should thanks myself and the cheerleaders for making me active again and I'm in high spirit. Next year I'll try harder and get to go up on stage, insyaAllah.

Heyyy I didn't continue my story on Scripted Destiny. Ugh my ideas were fading away and I don't have inspirations!! So far I've tried to sketch anything, and I only share my true sketching skills in my Science notebook. Yeah, I like to draw organs and body parts ha-ha. And I was quite sad that I didn't have money to by DVDs at Speedy store in Plaza Masalam. They sell Harry Potter pins with DVD set, and a full box of the whole Harry Potter movies and it's only RM299+. Kind of cheap, y'know? Ahhhhhhh I want it!! Oh no, I neeed them!!!

Okay, better hit the sack. Tonight is football fever where Chelsea vs. Manchester United//Malaysia vs. Bahrain. I didn't support Chelsea/MU so.... Go HARIMAU MUDA! Okay guys, stay fly. x

Google!

Yesterday's and today's Google design is so cute asdfghjkl

HTML Tutorial #1

Hi! I feel like sharing about things that people should know. Well some of you bloggers want your YouTube player plays your favourite song again if it's over and if your reader is stopping by at your blog for a long time. Yeah, I'm meaning by looping your YouTube player. You don't have to search a device that will automatically loop your player. Like Music Dumper or MixPod or something like that (these players sometimes doesn't have your favourite song and sometimes the sound is quite bad, right?). If you use YouTube player and necessarily want to loop your song, so here's the place!

Okay first, take your favourite song's HTML code from YouTube (don't make any changes from the embed box, we'll change it later). I've choose my fav song. It looks like this;

Then go to your Dashboard > Design.

After that, put the copied code to your HTML box. Like this! ;

Then, simply copy this code;

&autoplay=1&loop=1

And put it behind the YouTube URL in the HTML code (follow the bold one and if the URL has a question mark in it, put the code before the question mark);

Before:

After:

Can you see it? Now you're done! But there's one more. In The HTML code, you'll find another one like above. So there's two URLs. So you have to put the loop code that I have given to both URLs. Just in case :)

Plus, you have to change some things. So, it's the next step. Don't skip this! Or your player won't work.

You must find 'version=3' in your HTML code. It also have two of the code. Then, change it to 'version=0' so you'll have the simple player without any disablement. Both of it, must change it. Can't find it? The picture above has it. Good luck on that!

Next and the last one is, change the size of your player. The current size is 'width="420" height="315"' so you have to change it into 'width="235" height="25"' or you can change it with the size of your choice.

And you are done! Before that, test it. If you have problems, ask me okay?

By the way, if you're using this tutorial, make sure you use it with my acquaintance. I've worked hard for this haha. If you feel that this tutorial is useful, share this! :)

I know some of you guys want to loop your YouTube player so I did this tutorial for the needs. And some of you didn't want to annoy your readers with the same song. But I appreciate if you are reading this tutorial! It's my first tutorial :)

Thank you!

Sun, it's Sunday.

It's raining, the whole afternoon is like so dark and thumps of thunders, lightnings strikes with full of vicious, deathly lines of electricity. The sun was hidden behind the dark clouds, and I'm in my house, watching Smurfs. It's cold for a girl wearing brown shorts and a big, thin t-shirt and a small messy bun at my hair. I wore those and I make that hair do because today is spring cleaning! The computer desk upstairs were arranged. The stuffs that hoarded in the boxes were taken out, and the deserted area were full of dead skin cells that was turned into clumps of grey dusts. Yucks, I'm allergic to dust. Yeah, I'm officially having minor cold right now. As always, I've found a lot of things that reminds me of my primary school, my old friends. I miss back then when I'm absolutely nothing. My front baby teeth were one by one 'disappeared' that time (my Aunt Mama told me some mouse took them when I was asleep because my teeth were so cute) and I'm extremely short. A few hours before, I've found my primary school's sports t-shirt. Damn I'm small, back then I was too hesitated to wear that at school because it was so big for me. Now, I'm hesitate to wear my high-school sports t-shirt because it's big (what comes around, comes around.)

Then I found my book that was used as a game. Zoo Game. You have to 'sign up' (a lot of imaginations back then, a lot of it..) and you can customize your own dream zoo. I've drawn a lot of cute animals (I can show you if you want to) and it's proper cage and stuffs like that. But it each person has limited amount of money. 1 million, I think? Well, it's enough because I gave all of the stuffs in appropriate prices lol. So fun for me to play by myself that time... because I don't give a fuck. I just sit at one place by my own and play in that book. Isn't that cute?

I think I don't want to throw that book into the plastic bag. I think I want to keep it. I can do it again, in my room, alone.. or with Tinkerbell. Yeah, she likes pencils. And books.

Oh my god I can't wait for my room to finish! My mom showed me the plan, and she told me it's kind of huge for a teenage like me. Not trying to be a bragger but I'm so effin' excited! Now I'm living in a rented house with my family for a while. So, I'm feeling the excitement to the max. I'm excited because I'll have a permanent house InsyaAllah. I'm jealous with my friend, having their own room (eventhough some of them were have to share with someone) but they have the nicest room ever. Me so jelly.

Plus, I can't wait to watch movies with my gegurlz and him. My friends (especially Hanish Sheckler) always remind me if we can hang out. But unfortunately I'm having problems with my schedule (beat up a business man's schedule) and Rasyid will start his job at Jusco Bukit Raja next two weeks. Nevermind, I'll reschedule and yes, I need some time with my friends before next year. I'm a PMR candidate, yikes!

He's like Justin Bieber. Totally random, I know.

Let me guess?

Happy Monday, y'guys! Oh wait.. 94's were fighting. Goodluck for your SPM, 94's! Hope you all pass the big test with flying colours of skittles and unicorns~ and live happily ever after. Damn I feel guilty because, they're the ones who make my school closed early than expected JUST to get ready for their test. I owe you guys, lol.

Well, I didn't have anything to talk about. I'm completely have no ideas. Being frantic! Right now my daily routine since the first day of school holiday is;

• Wake up at 11.30 a.m.
• Wash face and teeth.
• Have breakfast or brunch..
• Take a long bath.
• Watch television. (while having lunch if hungry)
• Tumblr, Tumblr, Twitter, Blogger, Facebook, Tumblr, Tumblr..
• Take a bath.
• Tumblr, Twitter, stalk people, Tumblr.
• Sleep at 2 a.m.
• Repeat.

How extreme, is it? How can I survive when I'm in morning-session in 2012? How? I can't believe next year I'll meet my seniors with my 'morning face' and eyebags. Good god. And I'll have a set of exhaustion and lack of exposure from the world because I'm officially a PMR candidate that time.

Right now, all I need is having fun. Hang-outs, travel, baking (pfft, I wish). But yes, these routines is like my jump-start of being... a professional procrastinator?

Oh and yes, do add me in Skype (puteriadlinafina). Yes, I'm completely new. I know, it's now overrated.

Distracted.

Currently, my mom and my sister is watching The Walking Dead season 2 on Star Movies. I don't have the guts to watch carnivorous ugly zombies with them because I've a lot of nightmares about zombies and lost my love ones. But zombies are still the coolest. But I hate them. I know it's just some classic nightmares but still, topsy-turvy. I've imagined if there's a disease that turns people into zombies. God, I rather die due to lack of nutrition than being eaten alive by a pack of zombies. Sorry if tiba-tiba je macam ni, I'm emotional when it's getting intense in zombie movies.

Okay, what a random post.

Lately, I have a lot of ideas to spill it out. But eventually, I don't know where and how to express it. I'm not too creative but the ideas about blogging, photography, anything exciting. Ahhh this is hard for me. I think I'll start about it after the final exam. Yeah, less the tension. By the way, my mom told me to stop online for a while. It's because I'm still taking my final exam. Till then x

Unreliable.

It's like a ghost town in here. Sorry for being an invisible alien lately.

Let us start again, shall we? Hello, people who actually read my blog. I was busy, with school (a lot of projects, teachers nagging and absolute 100% infront of books. Smelling book is kind of fun!) and my personal life. I've became 14 on 13th July! Kind of an old story right? But who cares, I'm nobody. Thank you to Filzah, Hanis, Huda and Kamilia for bought me a beautiful present! I am really appreciate it ;')

Hey right now on tv, it's Chelsea vs. Malaysia. Why's player number 10 in Chelsea come to Malaysia? He's an Israel people, people! He gets a lot of boo's from my country. Why?! He should not come to Malaysia. Okay cut this crap out, I'm just freaking out.

How's my normal peoples going? I'm weird, as usual. I'm into books lately and play the piano. I didn't have time to update this and spend my time with social networks. And I've met a lot of new peoples in my school. A friendly hello to them! Aaaaand I miss my friendzz who recently ignored me. What happened to you guys? Most of them have changed. I miss the old you, I miss the old us. Please don't act. Hate me? Just tell me. Hmm.

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You've watched this movie? Fantastic. I should read it's book, just in case the book is more interesting. And I need some money $$ because I have a list which is a list of requisite. If that's the case I need to have a job. Car washer, or gardener. Or a part-time typewriter at my dad's office! Or sell some of my crap on EBay. 

Okay that's ridiculous. I hate school, obviously. The annoying teacher(s) and the strict school regulations. But I have a kick-ass time with my friends, that's for sure. 

Even though kind of lonely at school but I'm grateful for what have happened at school.

Am I boring right now? I have lost my imaginations and creativity, plus lost of topics to say. I'm talkative on Twitter, so drop by there and say hello!

Roger out, peeps.