This isn't fair.

"Walk a thousand miles just to see her, see her.

But she's far far away & I'd do anything just to see her face. 

But she's far far away.. walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again."

Bak kata Directioners; "Vas happenin?"

I've always wanted to use that hehe hi there, people in front of the monitor. As you can clearly see, I'm having an emotional breakdown. Until now. Now. I wish I can run away to Amazon forest where people can't find me and got suck and die by a huge mosquito. What if I had the chance? I can see who's gonna miss me. It's because there's no one missing me! Get it? Hahahaha fuck logic, I'm just a pathetic little girl.

The exams is just around the corner, and so does S.O.X. All-Stars Drum & Dance. Yay or nay? I don't actually is the date of the competition but I've heard it's on March. I DON'T KNOW! But whatever happens,  with all my efforts - I'll try to stay strong. It's 97's batch's year kaan? Remember about PMR? Yeah, scares hell out of me and I'm still here, typing junks.

A random fact about me; all the pain that I've gained from exercising and the cheerleading stuffs makes me forget all those things that brings me down. I guess... I like pain? The bruises, the sprained ankle. To short these words; I LOVE PAIN. But I meant the small pains so... yeah. Nuff sayin.

Actually, I'm out of ideas what to say. Maybe you have to buy me a cone of Baskin Robins' ice-cream? Loljk, I'll write sooner or later. Bye!

Already gone.

Stuck with a lot of activities, I'm depressed by myself. Rolling on the floor of procrastination and killed myself with tension. Emotionally dead. Naaah, you're probably not understand what I'm trying to say so let's begin with something.. I am dead meat. With high hopes that something bad will NOT happen but yeah, life's too unpredictable. Only Allah knows what's my next plan, what'll happen next and so on. Maybe I'll be dead, like really dead, tomorrow. Who knows? 

Whaaaat don't make the 'Omg did she just mention about death?' face please, my dearies. Pfftshhsh yeaah, like people care when's my funeral kaan? Ye, aku memang tengah emo gila. All I do now is trying to study with hoping that I can catch-up everything for PMR, tuition 3 times a week, cheerleading, piano lessons, and I have a problem with my timetable. I don't have enough sleep, I'm hurting myself, I didn't eat a lot these days. I don't why but I've lost my big appetite.

Oh the good news is, I'm in top 30 for Larian 7's! Tapi malangnya..... cikgu kira sampai 25 je. Boohoo, I am disappointed. But I gave a point to my Rumah Sukan and I am so proud of myself. I feel like, having an improvement on something is gooood. Last year I didn't join the run but I've joined it last two years and it's horrible. Better skip the story. Maybe I should thanks myself and the cheerleaders for making me active again and I'm in high spirit. Next year I'll try harder and get to go up on stage, insyaAllah.

Heyyy I didn't continue my story on Scripted Destiny. Ugh my ideas were fading away and I don't have inspirations!! So far I've tried to sketch anything, and I only share my true sketching skills in my Science notebook. Yeah, I like to draw organs and body parts ha-ha. And I was quite sad that I didn't have money to by DVDs at Speedy store in Plaza Masalam. They sell Harry Potter pins with DVD set, and a full box of the whole Harry Potter movies and it's only RM299+. Kind of cheap, y'know? Ahhhhhhh I want it!! Oh no, I neeed them!!!

Okay, better hit the sack. Tonight is football fever where Chelsea vs. Manchester United//Malaysia vs. Bahrain. I didn't support Chelsea/MU so.... Go HARIMAU MUDA! Okay guys, stay fly. x

Smells like oranges.

Assalamualaikum and hello there! Ahh it's been a while since I didn't tell rants and complains about my life. Busy with school, of course! I don't have the time to open the computer and log in and stuffs. My first day of school is okay, and I'm now a morning session student. Well, it's cool. The teachers aren't mean like what I have expected. My classmates were also incredibly awesome. Even though they're quiet and I'm the only one who laughed like a donkey with my fellow besties. But I can't hold on with the homeworks. Makes my brain dysfunctional.

What's up with your life so far? Pretty neat? Going down a little harder? Mine's in between. "Okay, here we go again." By the way, my homeworks are really fucked up so I'd better get going. I don't have the idea to talk about! *cries cries cries* See yaa laterzzz. *cries and make disappointing faces*

Say you don't want it.

What's up, teenagers of the world? I can't believe it's already 2012. And I'm definitely don't want to think about school. Yes, I'm going to be 15 and I'll be a junior, again. I guess I have to think about it. But I can't wait to meet my friends! And my future classmates will be so awesome. All I know was Nazurah, my bestfriend, will be my classmate ^^ Huda and Afif will also be in my class. Weeee I'll be a happy kid when facing PMR. I hope the teachers aren't mean, but I'll face them since they'll be serious when it comes to teach students who will face PMR.. shit. I want to be organized, for sure! I don't want to be depressed :'(

Lately, I've watched MTV World Stage 2011 on television (a lot, since I've recorded it.) and I don't know why but I'm so emotionally thinking back about that day where I've hung out with my boy and my uncle plus with his dope ass friend. It was fantastically perfect, indeed. I don't have the pictures since the ticket says that cameras are not allowed but my uncle sneak his digital camera in his pocket but the pictures was so... funny. Not appropriate to view here, lol. Obviously from your thoughts about this topic, you can say that I am missing this moments.

Oh hey! Since the school's will opening soon, I think I'll be not updating this blog like usual. Maybe 3 times a week or maybe once a week? The most extreme that will happen is once a month... I'll be post something on this baby. Hope you guys understand me. But I'll be 24/7 on Twitter since I'm using TweetCaster for Android. Or not. Facebook? Kalau dah sekarang pun jarang, apatah lagi nanti. Hehe peace out!

Washed out from the shore

Once again, a friendly reminder; it's the last day of 2011. The year that was full of sweet memories, fucked up mistakes, cat fights and friendly helps, trips that will be unforgettable and met new peoples. But I miss 2009 and 2010 more. The years that I have choked with laughter, like 2011 but more 'less worries'. Maybe this year I'll be not fully happy, but eventually someday, someday, I'll be. My dream of keeping my hair longer after it has been cut in 2010 came true! It's not long like flawless girls do but I still can tie it. I love my ponytail hihihi okay shattap. I really do praying for 2012 will be the year that will filled with memories more than this year. No more pain. Okay, less pain. And I'll be facing PMR. Second nightmare. InsyaAllah I can face it. I would love to make a time table since I'm in morning session now. After school, I'll have tuition or besides that, going elsewhere to study with my girls and hanging out. I hope my parents give permission to do so... Alhamdulillah my dad said that there's no need to tension because he gave me permission to score 6A's out of 8. But I'll will work hard and try to not give up to score it. And honestly, I hope I'm alive until 2014 because I've always wanted to go to a prom and gowns with stuffs like that..... hihi ok I'm dreaming. InsyaAllah!

So, what's your 2012 resolutions? Play a music instrument? Try to bake or cook? Still studying? Studying hard like I will? I'm going to be so fucking busy next year and hope if you don't mind if I don't update this blog 'regularly'. I have studies and school activities to maintain, extra-curricular, piano classes, and more. My mom said if I can't cope any of these, she suggested me to drop out from cheerleading. I'll try to be less tension, and InsyaAllah everything's going to be fine. I hope so.

So, my last words for this post;

Happy New Year and best of luck to survive 2012

Hope you guys have a great New Year's Eve party tonight with your love ones.

I wish I can watch fireworks and go to a party.

Bulletproof Love

Ahh, what a day. Cheerleading practice is quite hard today and yes I admit, I'm feeling the 'animal spirits' now since the other flyers were younger than me and they nailed the hard part! I can't describe how it saddens me when I didn't want to shivers too hard but it came more worse than I thought. I admit (again), I think I love to be the one who got thrown up and down but the main problem is; I'm too scared of heights. How can I overcome this phobia?! By bungee jumping? Climb up to the Eiffel Tower?

I'm tired to continue this post. It's supposed to be last night's post but my sister accidently shut down the computer. Bye!

Sun, it's Sunday.

It's raining, the whole afternoon is like so dark and thumps of thunders, lightnings strikes with full of vicious, deathly lines of electricity. The sun was hidden behind the dark clouds, and I'm in my house, watching Smurfs. It's cold for a girl wearing brown shorts and a big, thin t-shirt and a small messy bun at my hair. I wore those and I make that hair do because today is spring cleaning! The computer desk upstairs were arranged. The stuffs that hoarded in the boxes were taken out, and the deserted area were full of dead skin cells that was turned into clumps of grey dusts. Yucks, I'm allergic to dust. Yeah, I'm officially having minor cold right now. As always, I've found a lot of things that reminds me of my primary school, my old friends. I miss back then when I'm absolutely nothing. My front baby teeth were one by one 'disappeared' that time (my Aunt Mama told me some mouse took them when I was asleep because my teeth were so cute) and I'm extremely short. A few hours before, I've found my primary school's sports t-shirt. Damn I'm small, back then I was too hesitated to wear that at school because it was so big for me. Now, I'm hesitate to wear my high-school sports t-shirt because it's big (what comes around, comes around.)

Then I found my book that was used as a game. Zoo Game. You have to 'sign up' (a lot of imaginations back then, a lot of it..) and you can customize your own dream zoo. I've drawn a lot of cute animals (I can show you if you want to) and it's proper cage and stuffs like that. But it each person has limited amount of money. 1 million, I think? Well, it's enough because I gave all of the stuffs in appropriate prices lol. So fun for me to play by myself that time... because I don't give a fuck. I just sit at one place by my own and play in that book. Isn't that cute?

I think I don't want to throw that book into the plastic bag. I think I want to keep it. I can do it again, in my room, alone.. or with Tinkerbell. Yeah, she likes pencils. And books.

Oh my god I can't wait for my room to finish! My mom showed me the plan, and she told me it's kind of huge for a teenage like me. Not trying to be a bragger but I'm so effin' excited! Now I'm living in a rented house with my family for a while. So, I'm feeling the excitement to the max. I'm excited because I'll have a permanent house InsyaAllah. I'm jealous with my friend, having their own room (eventhough some of them were have to share with someone) but they have the nicest room ever. Me so jelly.

Plus, I can't wait to watch movies with my gegurlz and him. My friends (especially Hanish Sheckler) always remind me if we can hang out. But unfortunately I'm having problems with my schedule (beat up a business man's schedule) and Rasyid will start his job at Jusco Bukit Raja next two weeks. Nevermind, I'll reschedule and yes, I need some time with my friends before next year. I'm a PMR candidate, yikes!

He's like Justin Bieber. Totally random, I know.

Let me guess?

Happy Monday, y'guys! Oh wait.. 94's were fighting. Goodluck for your SPM, 94's! Hope you all pass the big test with flying colours of skittles and unicorns~ and live happily ever after. Damn I feel guilty because, they're the ones who make my school closed early than expected JUST to get ready for their test. I owe you guys, lol.

Well, I didn't have anything to talk about. I'm completely have no ideas. Being frantic! Right now my daily routine since the first day of school holiday is;

• Wake up at 11.30 a.m.
• Wash face and teeth.
• Have breakfast or brunch..
• Take a long bath.
• Watch television. (while having lunch if hungry)
• Tumblr, Tumblr, Twitter, Blogger, Facebook, Tumblr, Tumblr..
• Take a bath.
• Tumblr, Twitter, stalk people, Tumblr.
• Sleep at 2 a.m.
• Repeat.

How extreme, is it? How can I survive when I'm in morning-session in 2012? How? I can't believe next year I'll meet my seniors with my 'morning face' and eyebags. Good god. And I'll have a set of exhaustion and lack of exposure from the world because I'm officially a PMR candidate that time.

Right now, all I need is having fun. Hang-outs, travel, baking (pfft, I wish). But yes, these routines is like my jump-start of being... a professional procrastinator?

Oh and yes, do add me in Skype (puteriadlinafina). Yes, I'm completely new. I know, it's now overrated.

Distracted.

Currently, my mom and my sister is watching The Walking Dead season 2 on Star Movies. I don't have the guts to watch carnivorous ugly zombies with them because I've a lot of nightmares about zombies and lost my love ones. But zombies are still the coolest. But I hate them. I know it's just some classic nightmares but still, topsy-turvy. I've imagined if there's a disease that turns people into zombies. God, I rather die due to lack of nutrition than being eaten alive by a pack of zombies. Sorry if tiba-tiba je macam ni, I'm emotional when it's getting intense in zombie movies.

Okay, what a random post.

Lately, I have a lot of ideas to spill it out. But eventually, I don't know where and how to express it. I'm not too creative but the ideas about blogging, photography, anything exciting. Ahhh this is hard for me. I think I'll start about it after the final exam. Yeah, less the tension. By the way, my mom told me to stop online for a while. It's because I'm still taking my final exam. Till then x

Take it or leave it.

Why oh why do they have to be so cute? Hnngg

Due to the busy thangs, I didn't get the chance to update this blog and I'm apologizing about that folks.

The school holiday at Hong Kong was superb. I really want to tell you about the whole journey but I'm out of ideas and if I tell you, you might end up sleeping in front of ze computer, leaving your Tumblr alone. Yeah, I'm talking to you.

Yesterday, Hanis and Kamilia didn't come to school so that's just major bored. Science, Kemahiran Hidup and Bahasa Malaysia results came out and I didn't score well but it's cool and I'm just proud of myself because I've made an improvement in Bahasa Malaysia. Science, no comment. Kemahiran Hidup? Well, it's okay. I'm frustrated about the marks even though they're okay. If there's no extra marks, I'll get under 60% or something.

Today, I've got Maths, it's sucks. Real. Hard. Well y'know, I didn't have the Maths swag so I'm having a hard time to cope on Maths and I really need to focus next time. Teehee. Oooh and English. I got the highest mark in class for English! *shrieks* I don't mean to brag but, when y'guys have achieved something that highest among the rest, you must be proud right? Well, I am. It's still need some improvement but Alhamdulillah, good for this year.

So let's see;

                      Science                : 72% B

                      Kemahiran Hidup : Don't remember, zzzz

                      Bahasa Melayu    :  74% B

                      Maths                  : 47% D -.-

                      English                 : 82% A

Well that's for now, hihi.

By the way, I have a new pet now! A kitten. Actually he's still a baby (yes it's a male) and this stupid family dumped him at Guardian (A pharmacy and convenient store and it's near from my tuition center) and they separate him from his mother. Poor baby, he still needs milk from his mother. I can't understand why they do that. What if their children get separated from them? He's cute though, I really can't understand.

As I have said before (I have deleted a lot of the long posts that really bugs me out, sorry for the inconvenience guys), I really have a lot of pet, before this. But now I have a kitten and a pair of rabbits. I'll be responsible after this!