Tuesday, July 5, 2016

I miss you.
We're never in between when saying that we're missing each other;
it's either we said it a bit too much,
or never say it at all.
I miss you every day, every hour, every minute & don't let me say until second - it's every nanosecond, every breath I take.
Call me cliche for telling you all this, but I miss expressing what I feel for someone I love
& I'm missing that someone so much.

I miss you.
It could be something good, it reminds me how much I still care about you.
It is definitely something bad, it kills me inside knowing that I can't go on with my life without you.
Almost everything around me reminds me of you, without you even realize how much you mean to me.

I miss hearing your heartbeat whenever I lay on your chest.
I miss how you play with my fingers everytime you hold my hand,
I miss you telling me that my hands are soft.
I miss your voice;
when you're laughing on our phonecalls,
when you're talking softly in our pillow talk,
when it pierces the silence whenever we argued,
no matter what - it's way more better than we're not talking at all.
I miss the sound of you calling me 'sayang'.
I miss seeing you smile, especially when you're smiling because of me.
I even miss looking at you when you're driving, 
when you're eating, 
when you're sleeping.
I miss seeing you laugh about something you're looking at that tiny screen of your phone.

I miss you taking me out on midnight drives, we would go out to McDonald's & just talk about anything. 
I miss spending my nights with you rather than spending my nights missing you, wondering if things are okay in between us.
I miss being held by you;
the hugs you gave are tight enough to let me know that you wouldn't want me to leave.
I miss singing at the top of our lungs to our favourite songs.
I miss the way you tuck my hair from my face whenever I cried,
I miss the way you comfort me.

I miss those little things that you did for me & with me, they'll be forever make me feel fuzzy & warm in the tummy - even if it's just memories.
I miss being happy, sad, furious, petty, excited, everything with you. 
I miss telling you how much pain I'm going through my period pain, I could see you cared about me.
I miss being able to communicate with you.
I miss telling you how much jealousy I'm going through when knowing girls around you are trying to take you away from me without you being annoyed about it.
I'm just worried & in need of you, I'm sorry.

I could list all of all 'em things I miss about you.
I miss everything about you.
I could spend all night looking at our silly pictures & watch our funny videos,
hearing the voicenotes that you sent,
reading back our old conversations.
We know that we couldn't turn back time,
& that kinda sucks.
Things maybe getting worse as time is ticking forward, we wouldn't know what the future beholds infront of us. We wouldn't know what will happen to us. We could be fine today and then next thing you know we'll be nothing in the next day.

But I would take the opportunity that I had for now to say that I really miss you.
I'm not really an optimistic person, I'm really a realist but fuck it, I really need you, 
I need you every single time, for the rest of my life.
I need you, I miss you.
I miss you.
So fucking much.

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